Try to analyze what sort of fear you come across, what sort of doubt. Even to analyze and find out you should have a strong and clear mind. Because you are trying to penetrate through the mind with another part of clear mind which is very hard. So, in a way, it is better even to have a blind faith “I don’t know. I know nothing. Who am I to find out what it is. I simply believe.” People say, “Oh, that’s blind faith. You should not.” So, what do you want to do? You use your intelligence. Intelligence. Intelligence in the head. Blind faith comes from the heart. I always say that, even to know your dad you should have had blind faith. How did you know who is your dad? Just because mommy told you. Did you analyze him in a test tube? You have to believe in somebody. So, don’t worry. Think, “I don’t have the capacity to analyze everything and understand it myself. My intelligence is very limited. So, I will link my little intelligence with the supreme intelligence.” That’s what you call “surrendering to God.” Sometimes you say, “I surrender myself to the Guru or to somebody.” It’s not that you’re surrendering to somebody. In that name you are surrendering yourself to that Supreme God.
If you have that complete surrender first you have to believe there is a supreme entity, superconscious state, and you give up your little, limited understanding in the hands of the Supreme Understanding. Once you do that, even though you put some faith, that kind of faith on some ordinary person, even in that ordinary person, that Supreme Consciousness is working. It is everywhere, omnipresent. So, that Supreme Consciousness knows that you are believing in that, not in the ordinary person. Then the Supreme Consciousness will not allow anything, any harm, to happen to you. Because your faith is not in an ordinary person. So, that’s why simple surrendering, beautiful Bhakti Yoga. But even in the surrender sometimes we put a little ego there.
With the Vaishnava devotees, I mean the devotees who worship Lord Vishnu, the omnipresent God, as their Ishta Devata, they surrender to Lord Vishnu. And in that surrendering they show there are two types of surrendering. One is the monkey surrender, one is the kitten surrender. Both the kitten and the baby monkey depend on their mothers to move around. They cannot go by themselves. So when the monkey baby wants to go somewhere it will have to go search for the mother, grab the mother’s abdomen, hold it tight, and then the mother monkey will jump around. Have you seen that? So, who has the fear of falling down from the grip? The mother monkey or the baby monkey? Because the baby monkey believes in its own strength and grabs the mother. So the mother doesn’t worry. It jumps around. Whereas the kitten when it wants to move around all it has to do is “meow.” A little meow is enough. The mother comes, grabs the neck of it, and then jumps around. You have seen that also, is it not? So the baby never had any fear because the mother is holding. There the monkey is holding the mother.
So, you are holding a God. You are surrendering to God. “I hold onto You” is one kind of surrender. Another one, “I can’t even hold onto You. Please hold onto me.” One of the great saints sang, “Who can see the Lord if He doesn’t want to show?” So, even experiencing God would come because God wants to give you the experience. You cannot do it by yourself. That is what you call total surrendering. That’s what you see in Arjuna, for example. In Bhagavad Gita there are Krishna and Arjuna. Before the battle Arjuna, for various reasons, out of attachments and ignorance, he argued with Krishna so that he could avoid fighting. Krishna with a smile heard everything. He will argue and within a few minutes he will himself know that this argument doesn’t hold good. Then he will come to another point, and then he will come to another point. Ultimately he exhausted all. What did he do? He threw down his bow and arrow, fell at His Feet and said, “Krishna, I don’t know anything. You tell me, I do it. You make me do, I do it. I don’t know anything.”
Every time I say this I am reminded of that Korean Zen master. Some of you might remember what his famous teaching is. Once he was in one of our programs. He says, his teaching is, “I don’t know!” His famous sacred mantra. What is that? “I don’t know!” In Tamil there is a proverb. [Tamil quote]. Those who are Tamilians can understand that. You go to a guru and learn – what? Learn to say, “I don’t know!” Give an offering of an elephant to him. You give big offering to learn this, “I don’t know.” But our little ego never allows it. “How can I say I don’t know. I know something. So, I know something. You have probably something more you can give me. I will compare it with my teaching, my knowing.” Many disciples come like that. They already know many things. They have already seen many teachers, read many books. And if the present guru doesn’t agree with him or if he doesn’t agree with what the guru says, go somewhere, compare and contrast.
Again, one of the Zen monks.When a student approached him and wanted to learn more, he said, “Come on, let’s have some tea. Afterwards I can teach you something.” So, he brought the tea cups and he started pouring the tea. He poured and poured and poured. It overflowed and was flowing over. Then the student said, “Sir, sir, sir. The teacup is full, you are still pouring. It’s overflowing.” “Oh, I see. Then better go and empty it and come back. Your teacup is already full. Whatever I pour will overflow. Empty it and come back.” That’s what. That’s what. “I don’t know.” “Completely I surrender to you.” But that will not come easily. It’s easily said. We know the benefit of that also. But the monkey ego will never allow you to do that. So, when would you do that? When you get sick and tired of this ego business, when everything fails. That’s what. Sometimes when people come and say, “Oh, I failed in this and failed in that, I have this problem,” I say, “Oh, I am glad, I am glad. You have more problems? Have more problems. If you have more problems you can soon get tired of it, sick of it.” Because all your problems are created by your ego. Nobody is interested in giving you problem. Nobody. You are not that great. You think you are great, somebody wanted to give you problem? No. Nobody is interested, nobody can give you even if they want to. You are the cause for your problem. Your ego, your ego.
And so when you get sick and tired of the whole thing then you will say, “No, I am not going to do anything. I leave it to God’s hand.” That kind of sickness should come to us. You become a “sicker” first. If you are a complete “sicker,” then you will become a “seeker.” So when life troubles you I am happy. Yes. Somebody comes and says, “Oh, the pot is hot! Swamiji, shall I hold it or drop it? The pot is hot!” “No, no, hold it, hold it. No, don’t drop it, keep it, holding, holding.” If it is really holding and burning, would you want to ask my permission? That is the problem. Nobody can make you a disciple. Your own life would make you a disciple. Your own sufferings. “Blessed are the sufferers.” Is that not one of the Beatitudes? Why? How crude it is. It seems crude. If you are suffering, you are blessed, He says. You have to know the meaning of it. Why, because it is the suffering that opens your eyes, that subdues your ego. Pain is our friend. I used to always say that pain is our friend. Don’t kill the pain. Don’t take painkillers. No pain, no gain.